Music as Therapy

I love happenstance, serendipity... or whatever you want to call it.

This evening I was in great need of a little therapy and it's truly amazing what a view of the river and some good music can accomplish.

To say the least... I've been a little frustrated lately as each day passes without news from Ethiopia. However, I realized soon after returning to the U.S. that I couldn't let myself dwell on it everyday though it consumes my thoughts almost constantly. If I were to let myself truly feel what I am going through, as often as it occurs, I wouldn't be able to function. Not that I'm highly functioning while pretending to not have my thoughts and soul consumed. But in order for me to be able to get out of bed every morning (somedays later than others), go to work, try to concentrate on the 50 assignments on my plate, and keep myself healthy, I had to think of some sort of strategy.

I haven't yet been able to identify one.. but I think I'm on my way... That's at least hopeful.

My iPod happened to be on Lifehouse and the three songs that played next spoke to exactly what I was feeling and it was nice to be able to identify with "someone."

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I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I'll do when I get there

I'll take a breath and hold on tight, spin around
One more time and graciously fall back into the arms of grace...

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth
And I'm trying to identify the voices in my head

Let me feel one more time what it feels like to feel
And break these caluses up off one more time

Where I wanna be...

Give me a few hours, I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind could just stop racing...

This is over my head but underneath my feet
Cos by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat...

I wish it was just that easy...

I'm somewhere in beteen what is just - just a dream

Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Don't be surprised if I collapse, down at your feet again...

And a little bit of faith in something greater...

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?